October 13, 2010

strawberry ice cream cone

Decided to finally give this site a try. I still plan to use my Tumblr, I will be posting updates on both this and that. The past week I have been helping a friend put on a show, which explains my lack of updating. I have been costume designer, set building assistant, and the obvious job of make up artist. I am so worn out from my 9am-12am days, but I love every second I spend with my best friend. Spent my night sewing a leotard.

I feel like I am in such a rut. A place where I can't decipher what I want and what I don't. I have began to unintentionally force my mind to only think in the moment and push thoughts of the future away, which may or may not be a bad thing.

All I want from this year is to find out what I'm living for. Where I belong. My niche in this crazy world. Be comfortable and happy with myself. I can't take the easy way out. Need to let go. Wild at heart but too scared to show it. Work through the anxiety. Tomorrow is a new day with a million possibilities.