November 12, 2010

Inspiration: Ramona Flowers

I want blue hair and rollerblades.
I'm in lesbians with her and this movie. I tend to dress like her during the winter so now I have even more inspiration for extra layers. Believe it or not California does drop below 70 degrees. It's currently 40 degreases outside and sometimes it gets into the 30s, shocking, I know. Leather, surplus green, hoodies, fingerless gloves, tights with lace up boots. Yes please. And how could I forget the red lipstick?

I wish I could find a boy who would fight for me.

Today I also picked up November's Nylon and Elle UK with Alexa Chung on the cover. I needed something to feed my recent need for fashion. UK fashion magazines are just so much better than US magazines. I don't care if I have to pay an extra $6, it's well worth it. I will live in the UK some day, mark my words. I feel like I would fit in and make something of myself far easier there than I would anywhere else. Plus no sun = forever pale perfection.


November 02, 2010

Goodbye October

(flannel from best friend's closet, American Apparel drawstring tank dress, hat from hat store in downtown Sacramento, boots by Doc Marten, messenger bag by MARC by MARC)

I've been slacking on updating this blog. These are photos from my trip to the pumpkin patch on Saturday. I carved my first pumpkin later that night. I'm already having Halloween withdrawals. Now it's on to the two months I probably hate the most. I always find myself to be extra lonely around the holidays.

I need to learn that it's ok to be alone sometimes. I need to start living for myself. I need to stop feeling as though I need the constant love of another person to feel happy. Although it'd be nice to finally find someone. Someone nice and respectful. Someone who is content being with just me, only me, and accept me for exactly who I am. No more games. No indecision. Is that too much to ask for? Every time I feel like I have that person and give them my heart that person proves me wrong. I just want to receive the same kind of love that I give.

I've lost my way with words lately.